God is so good. So merciful. So incomparable. The more that I have been learning about Him lately, the more I shake my head in amazement at the love, care, protection, grace He shows me. I am at a complete loss as to why He might choose to shower such indescribable blessings on this broken sinner, but I am eternally grateful.
Every time I log onto my computer for school, I sigh with regret at the lack of time I have to simply write for my own enjoyment on the blog. However, this Thursday as I sit at the Community Center waiting to pick the sister up from work- having completed close to two hours of school work and twenty minutes of devotional time- I have rewarded myself with the pleasure of writing a post :).
This semester is only three weeks in, and I have felt as if I were drowning several times. But, praise His name, I have been reminded to seek my help in Him! Through my failure, I am learning to take it as an opportunity to come to the foot of the throne of grace and seek my Savior. Rather than simply become frustrated and disappointed in myself- and focusing on me- God has shown me how much He wants to teach me through those moments of failure. He reminds me of my purpose- to become more like Christ, to bring glory to Him.
I find it interesting that as I have learned more about my Lord and Master, I have learned more about myself. God has pointed out aspects of my life that need to be molded more to look like Christ. Here are a few things that I will be striving to work on bringing Him more glory in:
- exercising self control in the way I eat and drink. Sure, drinking 40-some ounces of pop a day may not cause me to gain weight, but I am simply giving into my desire for pop. I may exercise enough to be able to eat junk food whenever I want, but that is not practicing self control.
- cultivating a life that focuses on people. An unsaved friend amazed me recently with her keen observational skills and her ability to read people. It struck me that as one who should be all about loving God and loving people (the two commandments Christ gives in the New Testament), I should be just as careful to take the time to try to understand and pay attention to those hurting around me.
- serving my family. Too often I am lazy at home. I chose to serve myself rather than those I love most. I am going to be more diligent in doing special things to show my family I love them and appreciate them.
- pursing Christ passionately. Since He is my life, my love, my saving rescue, I know I need to make Him so much more of a priority in my time. I need my time with Him to take up my whole day. Just thinking of this moves me to tears- I am desperate for Him, and want my life to reflect that. I need to change my habits.
I am so thankful for a God who saves, molds, shapes, forgives, and loves me. Lord, I beg that You would grow me to be more like Christ!
