The start of another semester awaits me tomorrow. As I looked over my course
syllabus for each class today, the usual worry creeped into my mind. The fear
that I can't do all that I must to fulfill the requirements for my classes. The
fear that the work of two summer classes, a full time work load, leading a girls
Bible study, and being involved in the college class will become too
overwhelming. The stress of balancing my schedule always burdens me on the first
day of my semester.
But this time, the stress didn't send me into a
state of despair. Though I may have uttered a sigh of "I can't do this", my
heart didn't dwell on the thought. And I know the reason why.
This time,
my heart and spirit had deeper roots in my Foundation. My King has revealed
Himself to me in so many ways the last few months, that I've grown to seek
comfort in His promises sooner rather than later. When life presents me with
struggles and challenges greater than I can bear, I know and believe that my
Creator holds my life and everything around me; to Him I run. I have no reason
to wrestle with problems in my own weakness when my God has already conquered
it. "My flesh and my heart faileth: but God is the strength of my heart, and my
portion for ever" Psalms 73:26.
Will this summer be easy? No. Will I
become more reliant on my Savior in the stress and craziness of my work? I pray
so. He has promised to never leave me or forsake me (Matthew 28:20, Hebrews
13:5). He promises that I can do all things; not on my own, but through Him, by
His power (Philippians 4:13). I know I can't do all this on my own. I'm
trusting His leading in my life and claiming His promise in Proverbs 3:5-6;
"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own
understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy
paths."
At the end of last summer, I wrote a blog post lamenting my lack
of growth and mis-focus. But this summer will be different. God has humbled and
molded this heart to desire something more than temporary pleasures. I want to
bring my King glory; to be a good visual representation of my Lord and Redeemer.
I don't know why He has allowed this broken vessel to serve Him, but I'm so
grateful for the opportunities He has provided me to honor Him with.
So,
tomorrow I will start the day with this thought; Hallelujah, King Jesus reigns.
My sin, my weakness, my pain, my failure, my unbelief; He is greater, stronger,
mightier than it all. My Conqueror and King, Comforter and Peace, Love and
Life-Source, my Everything is near me. What should I fear?
